Junior camp 2010 has just concluded today, and I feel oddly disoriented with nothing to do, no carrots to cut, milo to make, tables to clean, cups to wash, but just sit around and watch television. All the hustle and bustle of the past few days almost makes the present idleness hard to bear. Feel as if I ought to be somewhere else instead of home! It was an amazing success and I had so much fun, especially with all the aunties who taught me new dishes to cook, huddled around to share creative new recipes which were realized. Funny that my best memories are the time that I spent with the aunties rather than the kids when it is supposed to be a kid's camp. That's probably because I had so much work to do in the kitchen; food was intensive! And they really ought to do something about the manpower allocation. Giving me one other person when the person is never around because of other commitments is useless, sigh. The only ax I have to to grind is that the kids barely remember me! Well, they remember, but there is no close bond to speak of when I barely have time to build rapport with them. It's always a different group of kids and time is limited grr. Anyway, during the camp, Pastor shared about going after futile things, and I was just reflecting, if every second of life is treasured and put to full use, excluding meals and zzz time, each and every one of us has the potential to make something great out of ourselves! So apparently, I obviously am not maximizing my time. That shall be something that I will endeavor to improve on.
Kids nowadays are really scary. At primary 4, they are talking about having crushes and wanting to have a boyfriend. I don't really remember having the same thoughts at that age! And some of them are really mean, they really know how to cut to the quick, find weaknesses and cause critical damage. Some girl said "you want a bigger piece (of paper) because you're fat is it?" And the other girl was so hurt. When you see all this occurring, you will begin to wonder what this world is coming to. No wonder every generation of children gets increasingly harder to raise, the media is wreaking havoc with the children's moral values and character development. I shudder to think what my kids are going to be like, if I'm going to have them.
The biggest pleasure of the camp was to have Aunty Lai Heong (Joel's mum) there. Haha, I missed her terribly and this is one regret in my life! I missed her so much that I even dreamt of her! She was there and we had so much fun working together, and she is still so loving and motherly! She told the other aunties not to bully me when I join kitchen ministry otherwise they would hear it from her. We talked about Europe and she wanted me to show her all the pictures that I have taken. Always nagging me about eating, saving me food and showing me so much concern. She is absolutely wonderful, I don't know how anyone could not appreciate a mother as awesome as her. Occasionally wondered how different would my life be if I had someone who did things for me rather than me doing things for her. Ooops, selfish thoughts but it's true.
Camp could go on for another week and still I wouldn't think it would be enough.
Labels: June 2010
You make me smile
Even the times I'm trying to be serious
You are possessing the quality mysterious
A special style
You, you, you, you make me smile
You make me smile
Even the times our future's looking gloomier
Come through the door and then the room looks roomier
And for a while
You, you, you, you make me smile
You make me smile
That's how I feel, boy
Whenever I'm with you
You make me smile
We're never thinking that it could be so possible
Now on the other hand, It's finally probable
I'll stay a while
'Cause you, you, you, you make me smile
You make me smile
That's how I feel, boy
Whenever I'm with you
You make me smile
That's what you do to me, baby
All the things I seem to feel uptight about
Ain't so devasting afterall
This must be what life is all about
Standing tall each time you take a fall
You, you, you make me smile
That's how I feel, boy
Whenever I'm with you
You make me smile
That's what you do to me, baby
You make me smile
That's how I feel, boy
Whenever I'm with you
A song for you. Never has a song so succinctly expressed how I feel. Thank you for making me smile. And I hope that I can do the same for you.
Labels: June 2010
