Last few days of freedom. And I randomly received a message from Ben Davison calling me "my sweet pea". What the hell. Eyelid and eyebrow twitching. I'm fairly certain I'm going to stay single for a long time, especially with all these weirdos around. Feeling rather miserable that my fun days are ending soon. It is indeed unimaginable that I am somewhat done with the education system that I have been trapped in for 3+6+4+2+3= 18 years of my life. Hello to the new working world where people back-stab each other and scandals run amok. I managed to make good use of today to play my favorite sport- about 5 hours of training! My body is aching like mad and it's so shiok. I won't be able to do this again for a long long time once I start work.

Contemplating friendships, I think there is one thing that I am super grateful for. Though I don't always say, but there is one special person who is always there for me no matter what I may be going through or what I may do wrong. Someone who will always stand on my side, supporting me and feeling indignant on my behalf. I have been truly blessed. I don't see my life as smooth-sailing especially with this person around (because fussy and demanding), but my life is filled with joy and happiness. Nothing happens without a reason, and regardless of what the reason is, I am glad I met you. Thank you for your priceless love and I will always treasure our friendship:)

Work. I am so apprehensive about starting it next week. But I shall remember my goals as I step into the dog-eat-dog world. 1. To never react but respond 2. Avoid all compromising circumstances 3. Not to lose my joy and turn cranky, like all the other auditors! 4. To be a shining light:) Hope that I will be able to keep these goals in sight.

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Would you rather be loved or love? Having tried both extremes, I really cannot decide. Loving someone brings you joy that seems to spread from the tips of your hair to the ends of your toes. Being loved brings security and comfort. Most importantly, it is not consuming. I will never feel compelled to agree with something that I don't. Never obliged to be someone whom I'm not. Never lose a part of myself. Not like in the past.
What constitutes a balanced relationship? Honestly, I cannot define my personal territories in a relationship. Not right now when the hurt is still fresh. Giving has become my second nature though I really want to be a bad-ass. This is the biggest reason why I'm single but unavailable. Until I can figure myself out.
The next reason is having much higher expectations. I have so much higher standards now. I'm not afraid to be a spinster, to a certain degree no longer controlled by my 25-years-old-get-married wish. I hope to find someone with the same faith, someone who has the same frequency and someone whom my friends can accept. Haha, I hope that I can find someone like you! (you should know who you are) Well, interesting musings. Can't decide if I should discourage someone who is really nice (though I have declared myself single but unavailable for a couple of years) or keep it as an open option. And my parents have been talking about weddings again. And boyfriends. If they find out I don't mind being a spinster, they are going to split!

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On Wednesday, the babes and I went roller blading! It was helter skelter, frantic and panic. Initially I was strongly strongly adversed to the idea of leaving the safety circle of the learner's corner, but alas, my objection is naught in the face of two avid and keen bladers. Skidding and sliding, we made our way to the fort road end of east coast park! I'm glad to announce that I fell three times with no apparent injuries or scrapes. Sulin has managed to balance out her injuries by falling on both butt cheeks. And Jean the hero found blading so therapeutic that she proceeded without much of a backward glance! According to the girls, we might attempt blading again this Wednesday. Maybe I might just end up running instead. Haha.


Our sticky selves after blading. Can you tell how relieved I look?!



The two babes who were dying of thirst after blading settled for BIG GULP. We were all saddened to find out that Mr. Softee is no longer available at 7-11 outlets.









We entertained our tastebuds with Vietnamese food that night! It was the first time for me. My dry noodles were light and refreshing. Purrrfect! Jean had stewed beef while Sulin had her spicy beef Pho.












After our dinner, we went to visit ah chew! Sulin had her long craved for peanut paste, which both Jean and I agreed was smelly. Jean was greedily devouring her barley ginko while I had my ice-cream with honey dew sago. Haha, we could barely taste our food when the peanut smell was bombarding our senses every single time we bend down to eat! We finally gave up and lifted our bowl to eat while glaring at her peanut paste. Haha, it was a nice day that concluded with aching butts and backs (except for Sulin).

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