Woohoo, today is the first day I've been home an ENTIRE day since him. Haha, feels a little like I'm shut off from the world outside. How many times have I sat in this exact same spot waiting for him to come. I can't remember. Here I am, all alone, doing my work. Seems so surreal, that part of life, yet so real. Haha, actually I was just thinking, what kind of movie would my life be were it be made into a movie? I think it's probably similar to a korean drama or something. I wonder if there will come a day soon where I can sing this song:
I had tender feelings that you made hard,But it's your heart, not mine, that's scarred.So when I go home, I'll be happy to goYou're just somebody that I used to know.You don't need my help anymore,It's all now to you, there ain't no before,Now that you're big enough to run your own showYou're just somebody that I used to know.I watched you deal in a dying day,And throw a living past away,So you can be sure that you're in control,Your'e just somebody that I used to know.I know you don't think you did me wrong,And I can't stay this mad for long,Keeping a hold of what you just let goYou're just somebody that I used to know.
But as I looked at him sitting there all alone with a me against the whole world face, I just can't help but want to tell him that no one is against him. And even if everyone was he'd have me on his side. Just that he probably doesn't want me there. It's obvious isn't it, when he's thrown away almost everything that I've given to him. I wonder if I can lift my head up high and say hurmpf, you don't know what you're missing, you don't know what you're throwing away. It's your lost for not recognising my worth.Okay, enough reminiscing. Got to get back to my work before my boss kills me. Haha, I have like 6 CDs to finish transcribing, but I take 6 hours to transcribe 20 minutes! How in the world can I finish this by Friday?!:( And seriously, transcribing is boring work. 